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April 30
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Finally, i finish one month of being a vegetarian.
Is it hard!? yes... Especially, during the third week.
It was so tough, look back, it was difficult;
look front, still have half way to go... so struggling!
Today is last day to go, 3 hour ago, i had my dinner.
Now I feel so released, another half hour I am free.
and not just like that...
I won !! Win my self, a toughest enemy you have to deal with.
No wonder Kob said this is also a part of practice of mind.
a practice of self-control, now i understand.
After all, self-esteem is growning, too.
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April 29
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At early 5am picked you up,6am we arrived Palo Alto Baylands Nature Preserve. Weather is much colder than I thought, but already too hot to find any dew at this early morning. Even though I can't find anything I was looking for, i did find many interesting objects instead -- snails, ladybugs, bees...
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3 bad things happened today:
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 my Nikkor VR Micro lens appears difficult to focus automatically;
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you accidently steped into the marshland... 
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i was feeling colder  and more colder; tired and more tired.
but 3 good things happened following  :
- San Jose Camera Store is sending my lens to Nikon store. 4-6 weeks, it will return under a perfect condition.
- I was scared when I saw you standing in the marshland. Thanks God! You were back on land rapidly.
- We canceled following trip to Stanford again and went back your home directly. You got a warm bath, and I could sleep from 11am to 1pm, and again from 4pm-9pm.
What a day we spent together
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I was feeling terrible laterly. However, your porridge tasts so good, thank you for your cooking!
Today may not be a wonderful day, but with you, definitely, is a happy day after all.
Aiden, i still can't believe that you recognize me because of my walking style.
hehe, but it's ok as long as you like it, even though you mention I walk like a man...
One more day to go, no more veg only, and by the time you are here, we can go any kind of meal.
Can't wait your coming back this weekend!
© 2007 Lana Gao | April 28
 热!热!热!
怎么会那么热,受不了,都懒得出去了,本来说好今天去 Stanford Museum,懒得只能明天去了。
Just as long as you are beside me, I am happy! 
Because there are always something sweet I can receive from you...
a sweet story from past... a sweet future tale...  ... a sweet ice cream... a sweet candy...
Happy always when you appear!
 现在看到镜子就拍,好像都成习惯了。
这次 through the mirror,还拍到你,这样笑我,难道我看上去那么好笑吗?
你说“好玩!”  ...
呵呵
© 2007 Lana Gao | April 26
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世上最伤心的事,莫过于失恋;
最烦人的事,莫过于被人嫉妒;
不一样的经历,可一样的无奈;
遭遇了,更是一样的不幸。
今天居然还是被一个 gay 嫉妒,实在是无言。更冤的是还是为了一个朋友被嫉妒,好无奈的。
也不知道该做什么才好了...
平时看到那种娘娘腔的男孩子,其实是很讨厌的,现在无缘无故还被这种人嫉妒,好惨的、好无聊的。
那种嫉妒时所表现出来的行为到是和女孩子没啥两样,无故耍脾气、给脸色看、冷嘲热讽就不用说了...
居然还会时不时地说些醋话,真是受不了了。咳,一个男孩子这样,要不是知道是因为爱一个人,还真瞧不起他了呢!
咳,知道同性恋在旧金山很普遍,自己也有好多同性恋朋友结婚了,也为他们高兴呢。
从来都没想到有一天会被一个 gay 嫉妒的,况且他喜欢的人只不过是一个很依赖我的好朋友。
好朋友知道后,更是不知所措,难以置信外... 谁都不知道该如何才好...
看来,他也是一样的无奈... 也许这就是人生!
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回到家,把从前 cambodia、
中国旅游的照片都看了一遍,
想找点照片convert to 黑白,
然后再 Invert 成了 negative,
打印到 Jetink Film paper。
那明天就可以去photo lab放大到传统的照相纸上,
下个星期二的课也就不用愁没有照片带去了。
咳,自己都觉得自己投机取巧的无话讲,
可又实在不想去借个传统照相机拍了,
拍完了,还要先把底片冲出来,
再把... 都不敢去想,烦... 不投机怎么行。
找照片的时候,发现这张在柬埔寨机场拍的照片,
那只大象我好喜欢的,也把它带来美国陪我呢。
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© 2007 Lana Gao | April 22
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星期天的晚上总是最忙的,因为总会想起很多功课没做完,PHTG 58B 星期三要交第一份作业了,可都还没有开始动起来来呢。PHTG 54 得更麻烦,从前的那些黑白老胶卷也不知道都跑哪里去了,现在说一定要用胶卷到暗室放大照片的,可是还不知道用什么放呢... 现在都是数码的了.
... 晕! | April 19
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Bookstore 的 Rush Hour 终于过去了,一切恢复平静。
今天也拿到了接下来整个学期的固定 Schedule。
不会再像上个学期那么傻给个早上的 schedule 了,没得懒觉睡 :)
课程和打工的时间配合得相当好,星期四还可以一起和你打工,好得很呢!
星期五可以做做功课等你下班,周末还可以和你一起到处拍拍照,不错呢。
原以为很简单的 Photography History 原来也有很多功课呢,
两个 exhibitions 和 papers to due,不过我相信没什么大问题的。
© 2007 Lana Gao | April 18
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突然发现,洗个热水澡也是如此享受的事情。
只是静静地站在淋下的水中,感觉着水流过每一寸肌肤,暖暖的,好舒服,真不想出来了。
今天打工我吃了很多很多糖果,把新同事都吓倒了  。
明天没有课、也不用去打工  ,自在的日子呢! | April 17
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就在我学校对面拍的
Dance Academy USA
一个给小朋友学跳舞的地方。
我们今天来,却是买书的。书店就在这后面,因为你的书在学校找不到。
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© 2007 Lana Gao | April 16
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先来到 Half Moon Bay 的 Downtown。一个很有特色,艺术氛围很浓厚的小镇。
到处是鲜花、Gallery、布置得很有异域风情的小店... 你说很喜欢逛这样的店,因为其他地方看不到。 
不经意的一面墙、一个座位、一个角落,都会时不时找到一些点缀,透露出一股与众不同的艺术氛围。
的确是很久没有来了,可还是记忆中那个能让人神闲气定,悠然自得的 Half Moon Bay!
© 2007 Lana Gao |
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Never thought sunset is such beautiful
at Half Moon Bay, California, USA
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© 2007 Lana Gao | April 15
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Spring Quarter finally started, today is our first weekend.
After you finish all your homework, we step on our trip to Half Moon Bay.
这里的海滩总好像是来不厌的,每次来,每次都有新的心境。
听着你说小时候的故事,还真是挺有趣的。
虽然每次都很喜欢站着瞭望这片无边无际的海洋,好像一个不小心能看到海的那头,where I came from;
可还是经受不起这阵阵的刺骨寒风,早早躲回车里,不停的叮嘱自己下次一定要多带些能防寒的衣服来。
旧金山的 bay area 就是这样的,哪怕是到夏日炎炎,太阳当头照的时候,海风阵阵吹来还是刺骨寒冷的。
已经不知道几次被这样的假象所蒙骗了,可还是没学乖,总是到了,才想起,真是的!
© 2007 Lana Gao | April 14
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难怪今天 edit 照片时,总觉得怪怪的,怎么改都觉得不对劲。
原来是这副大大的墨镜,难怪你们都说看了不习惯,我自己看了都不习惯。
不知道为什么,和你在一起,总会伤到自己,从ice-kating脸上划到疤开始。
好像留疤已经是家常便饭的事了...  ... 疤痕还真没停过!
© 2007 Lana Gao | April 13
今天陪你去买书,真是的,总是等到用的时候,才想起买书了。 真是的,亏你也在 bookstore 打工呢!
眼睛上因为XXX的原因,成了 black eye,活像一只熊猫,所以一整天都带着大大的墨镜。
虽然不痛不痒,可是很难看,还情愿颠倒一下呢!希望能早早褪下去,时时刻刻带着墨镜也挺不习惯的。
© 2007 Lana Gao April 12
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这个学期拿了4节摄影课:
Digital Photography, Experimental Photography,
History of Early Photography, and Special Projects in Photography.
数码摄影和摄影历史课应该不难。
那个Experimental Photography好像挺烦的,所有作业都要在暗室里完成,我挺不喜欢的。
dark room 的操作太繁琐,一点都没有电脑来的简便快速;还有那些化学品,味道可重了。
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Special Project in photography,总算顺利拿到表格,因为一个学期老师一共就招2-3个学生,所以想拿这节课,不容易的。
星期二,和老师讨论,决定做 self-portrait as a photographer 为题的数码作品。期末交上6-8个作品就好。
说难不难,说容易也不容易的一门课。
也就这节课最具挑战性了。
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希望这个学期也能顺顺利利全拿A。希望你也一样全拿A。
© 2007 Lana Gao | April 09
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和你玩玩闹闹度过了这短暂的一星期,
加深的是两人对彼此的了解,感觉挺幸福的。
今天是开学的第一天,第一节就是数码摄影课。
老师让介绍我们自己,我想也没想就说了喜欢摄影,
准备拿个数码摄影的学历,所以才选这门课。
呵呵,不知道自己到底行不行的。
不过有一点我是知道的,当拿起相机的时候,
不快乐的事都能抛到脑后,手里拿的、心里想的
全是摄影!
© 2007 Lana Gao | April 08
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Today is the Easter day, and also is the last day of the spring break.
Of course I am staying with you, and enjoying every moment with each other.
Happy Easter day to your brother, too! Wish him has a great holiday at Riverside.
© 2007 Lana Gao | April 04
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It just doesn't feel like spring break since both of us have to work at Bookstore.
Last week is more like spring break with Aiden you were here.
However, today I decided give my self a break and we went to Santa Cruz to enjoy a srping trip!
After we visited Santa Cruz Beach Boardwalk and played as much rides as we can, we drove around and enjoyed the rest of day over there.
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You said you love here a lot and like to visit here often  |
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So, we made a season pass to Broadwalk, and got two one-day passes for your bro and sis,
so next time we can come back together play at broadwalk, and having a B.B.Q. here!
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